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IT'S WEDNESDAY~!!! 
That means one more day before AFest. (Well, we will be getting to the hotel Thursday night) 
There is so much to do! I need to get the ingredients for Jess and my lover's cake, because there is going to be a party in Laina's room. I have to get that done and decorate it (phew). it will be rather difficult because Jess is allergic to chocolate, so I was going to make it1/2 vanilla, 1/2 red velvet (she can't eat red velvet either because it is made from chocolate) I may just say fuck it and make it a plain cake. The results might be frightening. We still haven't packed. And we still need to clean the house.
Tomorrow, we will drop our rats off at my friend Amanda's and then we will drop by the liquer store and pick up $100 worth of booze (I am getting fucked up this year. No if's, and's, or but's) 
My lover is now officially on VACATION!! And we are excited about our little break from eveything.

So I have been killing time by reading lately. I just finished Memoirs of a Geisha and now I am reading The Geisha of Gion by Mineko Iwasaki. I wanted to compare the fictional story to an actual one. I was quite surprised with Memoirs. By reading the other story, I can pretty much deduct what are inaccuracies, but the book was lovely none-the-less. It actually made me like the movie, because so many considered it offensive and untrue, that I also didn't care for it. Ok, so Hatsumomo didn't ACTUALLY burn down the okiya (In the story, her friend Korin's okiya burned down), and Sayuri didn't live happily ever after with the Chaiman. And they DID hire Chinese actors in all the roles, but it was ACTUALLY pretty faithful to the book. There is no reason to actually hate the film. It was entertaining, and it was a good story. I think people are so uptight sometimes that they just can't get the stick out of their ass and enjoy something. So, I have decided that anyone who puts down the book or the movie can STFU and get over themselves because they are taking things way too seriously. 
But this is just me. Everyone has their own opinions. I have actually found that I learned more from reading Memoirs first rather than going ahead and stumbling through Geish of Gion. I know what she is explaining now because I heard it mentioned in the last book. It's a reallt interesting method, I guess, but it is working for me.

In other news, my lover's vacation starts tomorrow! It was supposed to start yesterday afternoon (technically) but then she went back in and closed last night. and then she is working lunch rush today. SO thats an extra 8 hours of overtime D: I miss her!!! ;o;
I am at my mom's doing laundry all by myself ;/

AnimeFest this weekend~!!!

Well, I got a new license. I have a spiffy paper copy 'til the new one comes in. I am extremely relieved because now I can get my social and a new debit card and after AFest I can get a job~!! 
My car is currently in the shop. The radiator leaks and in order to get my A/C fixed, I can't have my car over-heating. My grandfather told my mother that if she took care of the radiator issue, he would pay for my air conditioning. She was excited and agreed. I guess she has given up on arguing with him. He will buy us what he wants and there is nothing we can possibly do to stop him. In fact, I tried to talk him out of buying me the new bed he got me. But he wouldn't have it. In fact, he spent WAY more than I thought he would. He is sitting on a nice pile of money and instead of spending it on himself, he choses to buy things for his family. 
I will admit I am pretty excited though. I have had this car for a year and a half with NO A/C. And in Texas, winter isn't very long so I hardly got to use the heater. ;(
In other news, me and my lover have been playing Fable a lot lately. She bought it for me when we lived with an old friend. It's the Lost Chapters edition, so it should have the Whore House, but it doesn't. We loaned it to this friend and she played it in her brother-in-law's XBOX and it worked. They was borrowing it and then he bought his own copy and he gave mine back. We were looking at my disk yesterday and realized the disk in my case is the normal versoin of Fable; the mother fucker switched games when he gave it back to us. So we paid more and got dicked. I fucking hate that guy and I swear to god I will break his cock off the next time I see him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?! My lover gave that to me as a GIFT and I really treasured it. And he fucking screwed her out of her money. He really is fucking worthless...I am pretty upset right now. This is why I don't trust people and this is why I hate people. There is no honesty left in the world. fuck. Just another thing on the list that we got screwed out of while we were over there. . .

Does older mean wiser? Does older mean more responsible? 
I have been dubbed irresponssible because I lost my driver's license and my social security card.
Yet when I call, and make arrangements and smooth everything over, and ask my mother for my birth certificate.
She claims she doesn't think she has it and that I need to check with my grandfather.
He says my mother has it.
Now it is my fault because I didn't hand it over to the right person when I was done.

I am now completely fucked.
I hate this shit.

I still can't find my driver's license.
Nor can I find my state issued I.D.
I am also missing my school I.D. and my social.
I am fucked fucked fucked.

I need to find at LEAST my I.D. so I can get a new license.
I need it for college ;(

Not too much has happened since my last post. Since I am currently jobless, my life mostly consists of cleaning, cooking, video games and t.v. I am at the library now. I am ok with all of this. There is no way I can get a job at the moment because I lost my driver's license and now I have no i.d. what-so-ever. I am screwed. My lover actually enjoys me being her "house wife" so there is little to complain about.

I saw "Mama Mia" this weekend with my mother and it was amazing. At first I was a little "iffy" about it, but it pulled together nicely as it continued on. I went looking for the soundtrack last night. I doubt it is out yet though ;(

This last Friday, something interesting happened, though. A friend came over and we visited. My lover was planning on telling her mom about us but since she worked she missed her chance to call and talk to her. So after our friend left, she texted Terrie and pretty much told her everything. Terrie was at work but managed to text back: ":) I know you two are a couple, as long as you're happy. I love you unconditionally." This is the first time her mother has ever openly accepted who she was, and gave her stamp of approval. FInally she did something right.

Well I am at my mother's right now, doing laundry. My apartments are getting sprayed today for "pests". I had to pack my rats up this morning and get them the fuck out of there early this morning. I don't know how we are going to manage having Jazz and 9. We aren't allowed to have any pets accept fish, but my lover really wanted rats. I guess we are just going to have to stay on our toes. 

But all that aside, we really enjoy our new place. It's a little awkward at times when our neighbors try to talk to us. The woman in the unit below ours is legless... She has a yappy little dog, whom I hate, and she never leaves her apartment. We get complaints from her every now and then, saying we are walking too hard and such. She invited us to dinner one night, and we declined. I am glad we didn't go because my lover said she had made "taco cassarole". She is a nice woman, of course, but I don't like neighbors... in fact, if I am outside, and I hear a door open, I run to my car or up the stairs to my unit. Sometimes it seems like we are the youngest in the whole damn complex.

So I don't have a job and I am now a house-wife. lmao. My lover doesn't really want me to get a job. She likes me to stay home... Maybe she would like it if I could cook and clean and get paid. I got royally fucked by the resturant, so I have decided to take on a few college courses in the mean time. Our "land-lady" already knows that I am going to be in school so she wouldn't know otherwise if I got a job and didn't tell her. Our rent is extremely cheap right now, so we have more than enough money to pay our bills. Also, she is getting a raise :] So that will also help. We are still saving for AFest, and my lover wants a WII for her birthday, which she will get. And then she is getting us both dollfies xD mine is 300, her's is 400. And we would like to got to Oni... and then Ikki in Feb. So there is quite a bit to save for. I am on a Nazi diet from hell because my lover wants me to cosplay with her. Living off SlimFasts, South Beach TV dinners, celery and water. @___@ Also I have been going to the park and walking.

FOR 2009

Ikki: Fruits Basket
Me - Ayame
Her - Yuki

AKon: Yu Yu Hakusho
Me - Yoko Kurama
Her - human Kurama

AFest: Strawberry! Panic
Me - Shizuma
Her - Nagisa

These are set in fucking stone. No changing. We haven't decided for Oni next year, but we just want to get these 3 things out of the way and then we can sit down and discuss further plans. 

Oh, and on 4th of July, my mom's boyfriend's dog, Molly escaped. She is terrified of loud noises, so when the fire works went off, she paniced. She ran onto 51 (A farm road thats 65 mph) and was hit. I loved that dog. She was amazing, and she didn't deserve to die like that. Peterman found her body, after it had been laying on the road for 4 days, and took her home to burry. He wouldn't let my mom help because he said she couldn't handle it because of the smell. Peterman says by the look on her face she didn't see anything coming... She looked like she was just crossing the street.
It's so weird and empty to come to my mom's house and only be greeted by Baxter (Mystic just lays under the house now). At least we know where Molly is now... she is safe at home.

this is the last week day I will be at home. I am pretty excited. I need to hurry up and pack more because tomorrow I won't be able to, since I will be at a friend's birthday party. Tonight I will be going to the movies to see the Happening. We really don't have money to spend on such things, but you have to treat yourself every now and then, and our bank account has been on lock down since we found out we were moving.


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thats what I am doing today.

I am going on a random icon splurge...
sometimes I just need to sit back and collect icons.


I have so much shit to do today...
god.

Karen was REHIRED. WTF? I was so excited to see her leave, but Nat believes we will be short handed when the resurant opens up next week. Also, Donnis says it's a way of protecting Eddie because Karen may go to the cops for some reason about their fight.



FUCK, FUCK, FUCK 



Kai told me and Yaya that it was actually Eddie's fault... She said Karen merely looked at him and he blew his lid. Apparently Eddie has a horrible temper, though he doesn't show it. Once, Eddie tried to kick Oscar's ass because Oscar said he was "better looking then him"... because they both had new hair cuts. Oh my.

I think it's just the whole culture thing. The Mexicans and the Thai's just flat out hate each other...



oh well... Eddie better get a grip because I don't want anything bad to happen to him

So we needed to get our electric set up by today so it can be turned on by Monday. WELL, it turns out that we should have went LAST Monday to make sure it would be set up on the right date. Great, misinformed. We decided to go with Green Mountain Energey because they are the cheapest and they are good for the invironment, blah, blah, blah... But I was declined... =___= I can see that. :] I don't have credit. But my lover was ALSO declined, and she has perfect credit. WTF? So, we will have to just bite the bullet and go with TXU ;/ I don't even know if we will be approved by then. God dammit, some one shoot me. We should be getting power by WEDNESDAY. I may have to call them and talk to them by phone... I can't take any chances. I have been looking forward to being in my own place by Monday, so I could have one FULL day to move and unpack.


I want to crawl under a rock     ;___;
off to do laundry/ 

This is what always happens when I get a journal. I post faithfully in the beginning and then a slowly lose interest. Lately my life has been so hectic I don't really have the time or energy to sit down and recap recent events. Today, however, I took it slow and I visited Yaya. I loaned her FABLE and me and my lover went to watch her play. I ended up having to fight the Balverines for her because they frighten her. LOL. Afterwards I cut her hair and we watch the Simpson's movie. It was good relaxing with friend's for a change. I don't work as often as some, but I work just as hard. I figured that when the Moon shut down for a week I would get a lovely holiday, but I was wrong.

I took an extra shift Saturday night and Mariana showed me once again how to close. I still don't really get it. But Yaya said it took her like 2 months to get it; and she worked more than I do. We got 4 dollars each in tips. You deffinately get more tips when you work nights :]

Sunday I had to go back to my work to pick up mine and Yaya's check. Nat was there and he sat down and talked to me. He gave me a raise... $8.00 now. Sadly, this is the most I have ever made at a job XD But who cares? Frankly, I am quite pleased with myself. He is also giving me A LOT more hours, since Yaya is to be a waitress. And he told me he loved me xD

Monday I had to go BACK to the Moon to pick up my check stubs for our apartment. The kitchen is COMPLETELY cleaned out! It was so odd!! Oscar and Cesar were there sweeping when I entered. They were surprised to see me; probably as surprised as I was to see them. I didn't know Nat was having them work with the contractors! Eddie was there too! He tried to get me to help him scrub the walls XD No thanks. I had to then pick up my lover, and take her to get HER check stubs. Then we had to pay our bank $34 fucking dollars for 6 months worht of bank statements. Mother fuckers. I was so tired by the time we go to the complex. All of it was almost for nothing too, because the lady put that my lover got paid weekly and not BI-WEEKLY. So she said we made WAY too much money. And even when she corrected the problem, we still barely made the cut off; and I didn't tell her about MY raise. Sadly, they do not go by how much money you take home; they go by gross income. My lover's last check was $800 but she only took back $650 ;/ I feel we are being cheated. Our rent isn't as low as it should be. But it's lower than most. $333.00 for 2 bedrooms. Not bad at all.

Tomorrow I will get the elctricity turned on. (Green Mountain Energy) We already know which apartment will be ours; #806. It's upstairs ;( But we could use the excercise xD I still have a great deal of packing to do... and I have a party to attend this weekend xD I will be scrapping up gas money xDD Luckily my mother has agreed to pay our water deposit. So it will make things A LOT easier. Sadly though my check won't be worth SHIT because I will only get paid for Saturday night ;/ Just hope that things go well in the next few days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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So I haven't writen anything since last Wednesday. Normally I would be like, "Oh, nothing happened. Same 'ol, same 'ol."  But for once in my life, A LOT has happened. This may be a super long post, so beware for those who actually read this shit. I will start with last Thursday, which is mostly a blur to me, but I will try to remember it.

Me and Yaya came in as normal. I can't remember ifr Nat was there. Ugh, most likely... since he never leaves now. But we were doing our normal routine; count the drawer and makes iced teas. Karen (the dyke Mexican bitch) and EDDIE got into a fight. WTF?! She made him SO mad. I just couldn't believe it. What could some one possibly do to make Eddie so mad. He is a sweety. I can't imagine him ever getting upset. But he deffinately was, and he screamed at her. Of course, it had to be Karen. Nobody likes her because she is horrible to work with. She is loud and she shoves people. She is flat out rude to me because I am not hispanic. I guess maybe she thinks I am an imposteur. Whatever. I despise her. I think her little feud made me and Yaya hate her even more. No one fucks with Shikari's asains. NO ONE. Oh god though, Thursday was HORRIBLY busy. More so than I have ever seen. We had 4 or 5 waiting lists and the people just kept calling and coming. We found out that it was Weatherford's last day of school and they had early dismissal. We made over 2,000 just at lunch. Fuck me. Yaya said she had never seen it so busy. We were coming close to the end of the day and we got a phone call. I answered:

Me - "Golden Moon, may I help you?"
Asshole - "Let me speak to manager!"
Me - "Sir, is it an emergency? We are very busy at the moment."
Asshole - "Yes! Emergency!!" *starts screaming at me.

I hand the phone to Yaya who talks to him. Eventually she hangs up and shakes her head. Apparently it was the sand nigger (excuse my racial slur, but thats just what he is, kay?) who owns the convinience store across the street. Our customers are using his parking lot and he insists that we find them and tell them to move. WTF? Not possible, sir. Later on I told Donnis and he just laughed and said no more food for him. Yaya told me that he screamed at her once because she messed up his order. I'm sorry, but don't come to a country that is in a war with your people and raise hell. You'd think the fucker wants to be deported into a camp or something by the way he treats people. Karen asked me to tell Num and Eddie what she wanted to eat. Yaya told me to tell her no, but I am too nice. I asked them and I explained it slowly to Eddie. He was happy, until I mentioned her name and then he frowned.
"I can not!" He stated, as he shook his head.
I didn't really know what to do, but Num came over and Eddie spoke to him in Thai. Num narrowed his eyes and told me ok, but Eddie looked a little dissapointed. I was hoping he would spit in her food.

I left quickly when we closed (which took forever) and grabbed mine and my lover's food. I didn't get to eat mine because he gave me beef curry instead of chicken. :( I booked it to Azle and picked my lover up from work, went to Wal-mart, got gas and then headed for the liquer store. We got some Malibu, vinilla rum, vodka, and some baily's. Wahoo. But most of it was for a friend. The rum was for my lover. We got to the Sheraton around 6:00 and got in line for a pass. That was the fastest line I have ever been in for AKon. I was like, SHIT. Last year I had to stand in a 6 hour line waiting for my badge because I was lame and didn't pre-reg. Not this year though. The pre-reg line was about 4 - 5 hours long. We were lucky for sure. 

Honestly, I won't go into many details about AKon. it was a con. Nothing extremely special. We skipped the concert because the band was fail. Somebody else got to the vanilla rum before my lover did. There was drama and tears but we didn't let it bring us down too much. The Marauder's cosplay was a hit and everyone loved it. I was con-mama as I normally am and took care of everyone :B oh joy. We will be going to Afest and Oni-con this year, so we are deffinately saving.

Monday I was lazy and chilled at home. God we were tired. we had like 4 hours of sleep each night. That is one thing you can garuntee at con is starving and not hetting sleep. Tuesday it was back to work for me. I was surprised to see Mariana was there. She works at night and hardly ever works in the day. Nat asked her to come help out during days. I was quite confused why, but Yaya finally told me that she was going to be a waitress after Kai left. SAD, SAD, SAD!! Mariana is taking her place. She is cool, don't get me wrong, but I loved being so close to one of my best friends at work. I mean, she will still be there, but it won't be the same. She is already practising and takes small tables of 1 and 2. Once she accidently took at table of 5 and Donnis had to take over for her. Things go a lot smoother when it's just me and Mariana, to be honest. we don't bump into each other and hardly get into each other's way.And plus she NEVER lets me do anything!! But I can't really complain x] I love my job. I get sick of jobs when they aren't a challenge, and even though working at the Moon is simple, it physically drains you, so I can dig it. 

Wednesday, a shocker happened; Nat fired Karen! In front of Mariana! He said that there just wasn't enough work for all the bussboys that he had and that he could't afford to pay her anymore. Her last day is tomorrow, thank god. He also told her that he was letting Cesar go, too, (another bussboy), even though he isn't. I guess Nat was feeling bad for letting her go, but he had to because NO BODY liked her and she was impossible to work with. He told Cesar that is Karen asked if he was being fired to say "yes". lmao. In a way I feel bad for her, but she just can't act like that nad not expect there to be concequences. I finally found out why I never see her girlfriend Veronica at work anymore... Karen made her quite because she thought Veronica spent too much time with Oscar. Uhm... wtf? I would dump that bitch if I was her. I don't know how anyone can stand her.

This morning my friend Nannette called me and said her friend was putting her 3 bedroom/2 bath. house up for rent and she wanted to know if me and my lover wanted to consider moving in with them. It would be hard finding a job in the area, especially with us only having one car and with it needing repairs. But I said yes because I love them and I know they would be amazing housemates. We are really picky about the people we will live with. VERY picky. We have to love you tons before we would even agree to such a thing. But right as I was leaving for work, I got a call from my lover and we got our apartment! I am going to have to cut this shorter than I had hoped because I am tired. Butr we are excited!!!! :]]] and will invite friends over as soon as things are settled.

post tomorrow maybe?

It was oddly slow today. Normally Teusdays are jammed packed since we are closed on Mondays. People need their asain food, I guess. I didn't catch the Thai lesson today, but I will go over it tomorrow morning.
Today, Eddie had a funny shirt on. It had a picture of a Christmas reigndeer on it, and it sais "Your roof or mine?" Precious Eddie... i wonder if he knows what it means. He smiles about it, though. Yaya needs to marry him for sure. 
Nat was here at the beginning today. Yaya said he was being unusually bossy, and from what I could tell she wasnt kidding. He was odering people about left in right. And since he was there, we had to park behind the resturaunt. I hate that tiny alley; there are so many cars back there, its easy to hit one.
It poured today, about the time we started to close. There was thunder and lightning... oh man, it was crazy. Our power when out when we had a few customers. It was really hard to get them to pay and we couldn't see the calculators in the dark to see if we were closing right. So Yaya finished it when I left. 
Nat's wife is officially considered a stupid fucking bitch in my book now. She doesn't like me being paid out of the register, which I rather like because I don't have to deal with my bank. Well, she decided to write me a check today and she spelled my name wrong and she forgot my last name. My bank would NOT have cashed it; it looked fake like a 12 year old wrote it. I told Donnis and he shook his head. No one likes Nat's wife. She is a fuck up. I ended up getting paid out of the register anyway. Also, she took out WAY to much in taxes. 20 bucks! I don't get paid enough to get that much taken out. I think she fucking cheated me. Oh well, nothing I can do because I was technically being paid under the table. I filled out my tax form though, so she can't fuck me over next week. 

2 more days of work. one more day til AKon~!!!!!!! >]
packing and getting shit together.

Me and Yaya stopped at the donut shop early this morning. We got 1 dozen glazed donuts and 1 dozen chocolate. And we got 5 pigs-in-a-blanket. (Or hot dogs according to Eddie xD) Everyone was eating when we came in; they insisted on having a "proper Thai breakfast" before they eat sweets. Teddy, Num, and Eddie insisted that I also eat. They had eggs, chicken with ginger and white rice. It was amazing. I wish I could have eaten the soup they made, but it had pork in it. Then Num made me eat a donut. Everyone in the back thanked me and Yaya several times, but the Mexicans dug right in without saying anything to us... horribly rude, but I couldn't just tell them they couldn't have any... Fuckers.

Karen is so strange. This morning, I was getting myself tea and she stared at me.
"You like tea?"
"Yes, I love it... Do you not like it?"
She shakes her head "No, it's bad for me." 
"Why?" I ask.
"Because it makes me horny!"
yuck.

Nat came back today and I got to meet him. He is extremely nice and happy. He makes sure that you don't feel threatened. We talked a little about Thailand. Apparently he goes every other month because he is also in the orchid business. (that would explain why we sell so many...) He brought a new kind with him today; they are green! And naturally. They aren't very colorful; in fact, they look like a weed, but they smell good and they are quite interesting. Nat's wife is a bitch. You can just tell by the way she talks to people; like she's the boss. She is tall and blonde with blue eyes... I guess Nat picked a winner by Nazi standards...Whatever... just as long as she doesn't visit on a daily basis~!!

The Christian school who ordered the 80 chicken fried rices STILL has yet to pay. Thats 427.00 we are missing out on. Donnis laughed about it today and said "Of course they haven't paid; they're Christian. So their kids will be fat and happy while our kids starve..."
"It's the American way..." I added. It makes me wonder what his religion is. I can only assume that Att (his wife) is a Buddhist like most Thai's, so I wonder if her husband is in the same boat she is.

My aunt, uncle, grandma and grandpa came to see me today. They were lucky they came later because we were swamped today. (Went through 3 waiting lists...) My grandma didn't like what she got, so my grandpa will take it and eat it later. She did chow down on the egg rolls though xD

After all was closed, and when I was about to leave, me, Num, Kai and Yaya were talking. Num was so surprised we brought them food. He looked at us and thanked us again. "But please..." He begged. "Do not spend anymore money on us."
"Num, it was nothing. It wasn't expensive."
"But you work to hard..."
Ugh, why is he so hot? And he actually seemed extremely sincere. Why are asains so damn modest? Kai agreed with him... lol. Me and Yaya only laughed and told them it was nothing.
They will be eating donuts for a few days now xD

Off for the next 3 days~! WAHOOO
Carrollton tonight :D

Chris was bitchy today and complained about where me and Yaya seated people. It grew annoying quickly, and when he bitched about "not having room" for a party of 8, I left in mid-sentence. There was plenty of room; he was just lazy and didn't want to flip tables. 

I spilled boiling hot and sour soup on me and scalded my thumb. ;( This is what happens when Num is too lazy to walk around to make the cups of soup... 

I've been going over numbers in Thai. I can now count to 10 :]
1 - nuung
2 - song? (up at the end like a question)
3 - sahrm
4 - si
5 - ha
6 - hok (silent k)
7 - jed
8 - pad 
9 - gao
10 - sib 
(I wrote it without looking xD)

Since Chris refuses to give us Thai lessons, I had to ask Eddie what "please" was.
"Please?!" He says excitedly. "Karuna"
He makes me say it.
Then he pulls his famous theatrics; "Please, forgive me! Please!"
Num pops in from behind the counter, "Please love me!"
They chuckle and joke in Thai and then Num makes me repeat is several times.
"Do you get it?"
They are still laughing when I leave, so i go find Kai and ask her what it means, just in case they were messing with me. I trust Eddie, but Num is a WHOLE nother story. Kai reasures me that they aren't lying to me xD
I need to write it down in my notebook, so I won't forget it. 
Nat comes back from Thailand tomorrow, so I will get to meet him. Hopefully he will correct my pay... stupid Teddy... >____>

I caught Karen squeezing all up on Oscar's nut sack today. He laughed but he look quite uncomfortable, and I ran quickly so they didn't know I saw... I almost threw up.. And I am kinda afraid Oscar has a thing for me because he will poke me and tease me, and sometimes when it is slow, he will come up to the counter and stare at me while I work. Buh. I wonder how Karen's girlfriend would know if she saw her doing that...

I made a dollar in tips today... =____=
My mother is in Mississippi til Monday.
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